It has come to my awareness.

…that what other people say about me is none of my business. I guess.
I still prefer a straight forward communicaton but according to facts, that’s not for everyone. But hey! Small minded people discuss people and great minds discuss ideas.

I just don’t wanna listen to trash talk, I don’t wanna settle for less, I for sure don’t wanna get less paid, I don’t wanna turn myself inside out to please.
What do you even mean what do I mean?
Nah I don’t wanna try so hard to be perfect all. the. time.  Eat perfect, train perfect, work perfect, be nice, be kind, be soft, be quiet, aaaaw bullshit.


I will be the girl who does what is best for me.

Good training this morning though. Chippers I love.
The rest of the day I will spend with my book, my fighting gloves aaand my book again.
Some editing aswell. Grow business, grow.
Perhaps a new form of podcasting is taking form, stage 1. A different approach this time. Need more flesh on my bones before it’s for sure.

Bye bye!

Btw. Wanna run intervals some day? Outside in the sun ofc.



Status Saturday


And I am in a good state of mind. I guess mostly because I’ve made up my mind. Or made it up. Who knows? Anyway, if it’s good it is great.
I think people in general need to be more genuine.
My sisters (oh those smart ones), always gives me these tools I can use to understand, to know what matters. What really matters.
I know that now, I have figured out what it is I’m looking for and what I need and like (or I’ve always known but it is so easy to get lost in this noise that’s sorrounding us.)
My mission is to follow the path, the brightlights. Go where my soul can rest a while. Just a few more days now. Big relief.

Speaking of my sisters, such entepreneurs! So much creativity! Big sister with her own shrink business and the successful podcast. And now little sister with the photoprojects and her great writing. Mark July 14th in your calendar folks. Exhibition time! You are my inspiration!

Besides that I think I’m on my way getting a cold. Hm. Better rest tomorrow. Workwork all nightnight and sleep forever.

I’m also in a serie mood again. I love it!! Girls will return, I’m watching Vikings, Taboo and Black mirror atm. So nice to be back. Imma serie kinda girl. Now, all I need is a couch and maybe a bigger screen. And snacks.

Had a fab workout this morning and since I love HSPU squats and AB I made a little OT2M out of it as you can see.
Training goes well. 80 unbroken double unders yesterday and some decent heavy cleaning today. What more can I ask for. Let’s hope I don’t get sick now though.
That would stink.

Wish you a supersaturday! Imma read now. Proud nerd. Bye bye!



Let’s talk…

…a bit about grumpy people and people that steals your energy away. These two charming characteristic often goes hand in hand I’ve noticed. The grumpier you are, the more assholes you meet. Just like Banksy puts it. And how come? Weeeeell take a wild guess peeps.

I met an energy thief the other day. Actually I meet this thief a couple of times a week.
This particular one likes to play some kinda Dr Jekyl and Mr Hyde with me. That must be it! Because one day we laugh and the other day this person is sending me vibes that could send me to Inferno or something. A sort of misuse of power. To not say hello, to throw looks that kills, to not answer if I ask something, not responding to small talk even.
Every time this happens I examine myself and wonder what the hell I’ve done to this person. What have I done wrong that could piss her off? Again. And I recall…nothing. Zero. Null.
I will from now on stop doing this. I will not let myself get insecure by these people no more. I have done nothing wrong and if I have, well please tell it to my face because I ain’t a goddamn mindreader. I hate the guessing game.
I think all of this leads down to jealousy in the end. And jaundice. Very nice.
I’m aware I have habits and stuff people tend to interfer with and sometimes makes them go crazy I guess.
Like my ability to not be on time, always a few minutes late. Gosh it’s so hard!! I’m not proud and I really try and I will try harder.
That I train a lot can be very disturbing I’ve noticed. We have two camps in this question. The ones that cares about me and don’t wan’t me to train to much because of the health aspect, and those who wish they had the discipline to train at all I guess. Fine.
Some people might dislike my impulsiveness, I think I have some kind of impulsive disorder that tend to put me in situations I later need help to get out from.
I know it bothers some that I love to sleep and like to go to bed by 10 pm. That I spend money on skin-care. That I talk a lot. That I swear. That I have a temper of rang. And yeah well I can go on. (Let’s not, haha).
I understand it all. And I get jealous aswell of course.
I envy those who can chew gum in a soft and sexy way. I wish I had class and could dress more lady-like when required. I wanna have longer fingers and bigger boobs.
I would also like to start my own business and I envy those who can debate smart and funny for their cause. I hate it when everyone is repping muscle up beause I can’t. I wish I could snatch like a goddess and everytime I pass by a fancy restaurant I wish I was them sitting in there.

The thing is, we always want something else or something more of this or that. The difference between a bitter one and a happy one is that the bitter one tries to put other down for possessing the habits and skills that they don’t have. The happy one lifts others up because positive attracts, and that’s the way it is.
I would like to be the happy one and if I ever get bitter, please shoot me.
I believe in karma and universe will bounce back my wishes. Trust a little bit in magic friends.

Btw, todays workout was fab!!




My latest.

My latest…

Song: Rihanna-You Da One.
Movie: Ok so I have this problem. I can’t watch a movie, I get distracted and restelss. I need to be sick or have a hangover if Imma watch a movie and I can’t remember last time. Will watch Fantastic beasts and where to find them with Rebecca tomorrow though, I’ll be shit tired affter working night shift so it will be aaall my pleasure.
Book: Kära Liv och Caroline. OMG. Read it!
App used: Notes. Such a bad memory. Too much in my head.
TV-serie: Well I’ll start watch Vikings any day now.
Recieved text: “Follow this link to reset your password”
Send text: “And it’s one incredible goal in sight! Miss you”
Google search: Santa Teresa kina surf
Tears: When I was listening to Abbes hearing in the courtroom and he explained to the judge that he doesn’t wanna think about the past anylonger. He wanna focus on his studies, friends and future.
LOL: Just now, while listening to Alex & Sigges podcast.
Girl crush: Liv Tyler. Always Liv Tyler. When I marry, I wanna look exactly like her in The Lord Of The Rings.
Insight: Cardamum seeds is a really tasty spice blended in a fish dish, or any dish for that record.
Dissapointment: When I realized after a year that my monthly salary is a thousand dineros less than I thought.
Beauty must: Lipgloss.
Drink: Coffe with Oatleys coffeemilk and coconut butter.
Workout: See pic below.

Hang in there peeps! Monday is here soon! Love it for realsies!



Squad goals

You know…

when you’ve been having a rough day? (Again, this week goes to history).
Well, mine started out with so much pain in my stomach I couldn’t even move for a while and had to wait to get up and go to work.
Continue with a fucking freezing stone cold climate at work. I was literally freezing my ass of. Getting yelled at for no reason, letting people down to left and to the right. I ain’t proud of it at all. Freeze even more (effing northpole) before I finally could escape to the box.

Here’s where the magic happens.

Backsquatted more than I have in a looong time. Thank you for the PR belt Sonny!
And then a nice workout made by Son of a Gun himself:
2 rounds:
20 cal row
15 thrusters
12 pullups
Ok so this was awful, looked easy on the paper but you know how that always turns out…
7 min AMRAP:
5 power clean
5 hang power clean
5 hang snatch
Ok so this one I loved! I love barbell cycling even though my underarms got smoked and kinda disappeared somewhere in the end.
7 min AMRAP:
10 wall balls
8 push ups
10 back squats
Ok oh hell yeah! Just go and never stop.
Afterburn with some epic abs-tabata.

All and all. After a stone cold goddamn day (in mind and body). This squad made me happy again.
‘Cuz my squad is better than yours.
Thanks for todaaaay!



Dare to Zlatan

“If you live of a man’s compliments, you will die from his critisism.”

That’s the quote of the day for ya. Suck it up.

About believing in yourself. About having confidence enough to speak up. To stand up for yourself.
I’ve seen over and over again how much self-belief drives outcomes, and that’s why I force myself to sit at the table even though I’m not sure I belong there.
And when I’m not sure anyone wants my opinon, I speak up anyway.

Ok so fake it ’till u make it. Three simple things on your way there.

  1. Knowledge. Start there. The more you know… you know?
    If you feel insecure about a certain thing, subject, history or anything you’ll appear just as that, insecure. So make sure you get your facts straight and no one can step on your toes. Intelligence is sexy.
    2. Body Language. Read it. Yours and others. This tool is more useful than you might think. Make a powerful position and you’ll ace it. (Take yesterday as an example, I was confident as f*ck while walking to that barbell, and boom! 45 kilo snatch got up. Long time no seen.) Your brain can’t make a difference between reality and mindset.
    Chest up, shoulders down. You got this.
    3. Get fresh. Put some lipgloss on it, do your hair, set nails on point and wear those hell of a pants you know your butt looks great in. Whatever you feel like and no matter what: get up, dress up and show up (and of! Hehe). A simple lesson but oooh so very important!

Ok still sore from this weekends training so here’s what happened today:
Front squats (slow and paused)
Strict pull ups
Ring dips
So pure strength. Great.

Speaking of confidence and mindset. My little KAY-car just won’t start. Instead of go insane (cuz’ today at 6 pm there’s cleaning day on my street and I really have to move my car by then) I try to focus on what I can control. And I’ll beg for help. Haha. Anyone with jumoer cables and a car please? Today. Asap. Thanks a lot! I’ll buy you cookies!



Bring table to the table

Okok. Here’s what’s up.

If you own an kitchentable and/or chairs you don’t give a damn about anymore, let me know. That and a sidetable maybe? A nice sofa? IDK what you can bring to the table, just bring it friends!
I’m also looking for an ancient globe and huge frames.

Hollaaaa I just came out from the shower after a mash up I made myself:
Overhead squat
5 reps, 5 sets from 35kg-45kg
JenJen and 10 rounds 4 time:
10 cal assault bike
10 overhead squats
10 lateral burpees
10 situps
TIME: 32:16

It’s nice to mix lightweight stuff you like and make it horrible. It was a success!

Can’t wait for thaisession Saturday though. Long time no seen.

Byebye have a nice day!



Ruff riders

It all comes down to these things…

…when it comes to what we can control as human beings.
1. Discipline.
2. Focus.
3. Effort.

Discipline. I don’t wanna brag, but if it’s one thing I possess it’s discipline. I have no problem with “just do it”. Just go ahead and do it dammit. Wake up early, walk that extra mile. Put your mind on GO. No whining. If I have a specific goal in front of me, Imma do whatever it takes.
Take this spring that’s ahead of us. I have several goals. So I’ll work day and night (yes, I will work 1 night a week all spring), and I will save up for my goals. And in training. Yepp. Goals there aswell. Work hard, play hard, grind harder. D to the iscipline.

Focus. Oooopsiedaisy! I lack in focus. Lots of interesting stuff to do, do watch, to jump on along the way. I guess that’s what we call life? Distractions? I’m an expert of wanting to do several things at the same time. Perhaps because I don’t wanna run out of time or something I don’t know. But time is running anyway right? Some people live their life as if they’ve got aaaall the time in the world. I just wanna do so many things I possible can. I’m working on it. Focus now.

Effort. Yeah, you can’t half-ass aything. Lame. All-in or nothing at all, that’s the way I do. Always do the best you can at all times. And be wise, do your best from your starting point. Don’t compare yourself to others. Their story might be chapter 14 and you’re at the prologue. Always give 100% and do it for yourself. You decide how your 100s will look at this moment. And this moment. And this. You get it.

E v e r y t h i n g else is kinda outta your control. Sorry.

Anyway. Had a blast today with Sonny and Jimmy.
Here’s what’s up:
Some snatching
1= 11 cal row
2= 8 hang clean 35kg
3= 12 wall balls
4= 6 db snatch
5= 10 lateral burpees
6= 1 rope climb
x 6 rounds

Awesomeness. Great job as always guys and it’s so much more fun to train togehter and kick some serious ass together!
Let’s do more fun! I like this!

Wow, what happens next is like a lightning bolt. TeamWOD and the coach was…me! Yes!!
A really fun one, legtime! So frigging nice to see our great athletes sweat and swear and fight like the beast and beastettes they are. Beautiful IF you ask me.
And you should.

Catch u on the flip side!

Things I can’t control no 345. Plants.



Love on the brain

Can’t stop listen to…

Raining men-Rihanna & Nicki Minaj.

Started this day best way possible. Team training with Ida & Kristina. Aka the superheroines.
3 rounds:
10 cal assault bike
10 kbs
10 pull ups
rest 1 min
lateral burpees
rest 1 min
front squats
wall balls
rest 1 min
over head squats
hand stand push ups

It was fab! Finished last. Oh lord. Well, next week Imma start a new challenge and it will take me to next level sooo might not be last next time. Hehe. BOOYAAAA!!!

A few New year promises:
1. Lots of sessions with my new band, sing loads of Rihanna, Queen B and Lauren Hill.
2. Give myself time and space (and state of peacful mind) to read great books.
3. Educate myself. Preferably: neurological philosophy.
4. NOT cut my hair.
5. Love hard and strong and show it.
6. Support my local everything.
7. Buy a colorful lamp to my apartment. I know e x a c t l y which one.
8. Aim high higher highest.
9. Kinda be a fruit loop in a world full of cheerios.

Have a superfly day now!

And this ofc:

It’s here, 2016 vs 2017.


Year In Review 2016

What one event are you going to tell your grandchildren about?
Not one specific event. I will tell them to trust in magic. And their gut feeling. Mostdef gut feeling at any given moment.

If you had to describe your 2016 in three words, what would they be?
Intense. Dreamy. Chaotic.

What new things did you discover about yourself?
That I am smarter than I think.

What single achievement are you most proud of?
Liv4fuckingJens podcast success.

What was your favorite place that you visited in 2016?
Ribersborgs coldbath.
(I had the most perfect place in my daydream though).

Which of your personal qualities turned out to be the most helpful this year?
My ability to see the humor in things when times are rough.

Who was your number one go-to person that you could always rely on?
The best squad: my sisters and Livia.

If someone wrote a book about your year, what genre would it be?

Which new skills did you learn?
How to open a door with one hand while holding three bags, a bike, a coffee cup and 456 keys in the other without curse even once.

What, or who, are you most thankful for?
For being surrounded by people who picks me up whenever I’m down.

What was the most important lesson you learnt in 2016?
To keep my guard up at all times or else get punched in the face.

Which mental block(s) did you overcome?
My complex about my laughter and to smile with my teeth.

What was your biggest break-through moment career-wise?
To realize that I can affect so much more than I think and make it fun.
To be proud. To be softer.
That I really like my job and my colleagues.

What book or movie affected your life in a profound way?
The kite runner.

What was the best compliment that you received this year?
That I spread positive energy around me.
Well there’s actually another thing but I can’t scribble it down because I wanna keep it forever in my heart.

What little things did you most enjoy during your daily life?
Long breakfasts, coffee with Oatley milk, barbell sessions with friends and that cigarette at my stairwell-balcony in the summer nights.

What cool things did you create this year?
A few paintings, a band and sweet memories.

What did you think about more than anything else?
How do normal people do? I can’t even.”

What topics did you most enjoy learning about?
Humans. Sound. Philosophy. Music. Skin care.

What new habits did you cultivate?
Rest days.

What advice would you give your early-2016 self if you could?
Take a vacation girl.

What was your most common mental state?
On my way somewhere in a dream inside my mind.

Which worries turned out to be completely unnecessary?
Every worry is actually unnecessary. Why worry twice?

What one experience would you choose to repeat if you could?
“Let’s never come here again, ‘cause it would never be as much fun.”

What was the best gift you received?
My green-pink bedspread.

How did your overall outlook on life evolve?
From my own reflection in the mirror to see the world through a prism.

What was the biggest problem you solved?
To save my car from the junkyard.

What was the funniest moment, one that still makes you burst out laughing?
Haha, it ain’t barred just jet.

What purchase turned out to be the best decision ever?
My tattoo.

What one thing would you do differently and why?
Be more forgiving towards myself.

What do you deserve a pat on the back for?
For fucking making it.

What activities made you lose track of time?
Spending time, sharing thoughts and life. About nothing and everything at the very same time.
(If time exists that is).


Year To Come 2017

What do you want the overarching theme for your 2017 to be?
That love conquers it all.

What do you want to see, discover, explore?
I wanna see more humanity and magic realism, I wanna discover another dimension and I wanna explore the ocean.

Who do you want to spend more time with in 2017?
Those once-in-a-lifetime people I love so much you know.

What skills do you want to learn, improve or master?
I wanna learn a muscle up, improve my self-esteem and master shitloads of songs to sing with a really badass attitude.

Which personal quality do you want to develop or strengthen?
My crossfit coaching.

What do you want your everyday life to be like?
Where do I even begin?
Ok. So it kinda begins with a thorn apartment and ends up with Illuminati.

Which habits do you want to change, cultivate or get rid of?
Perhaps I should try to get rid of that chaos-intense-dreamy state of mind.
But then again, who wants a slow-still-silent-non-dreamy life?
Heeeell no! Not me no. I’m out.

I wanna get rid of energy thiefs.

What do you want to achieve career-wise?
Establish the blood-podcast for real.
Interview Zlatan.
Take a philosophy course.

How do you want to remember the year 2017 when you look back on it 20 years from now?
2017? Oh! That was the year when we finally had peace on earth, the ice stopped melting and the only language spoken was the language of love.
It was also the year when I finally had peace in mind, I had no more meltdowns and love was the solution.

What is your number one goal for 2017?
To do: everything I can.